Decisions
All the hours of anticipation,
The preparations,
Imagining his face,
His eyes,
So close.
You will wear your special perfume,
The dress that reveals the curve of your breasts.
You will touch his cheek with the palm of your hand
And say,
And say,
And say?
~ Russ Allison Loar
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All This Eternity
Some pray for wisdom
And go mad.
Some pray for health
And are struck down.
Some pray for love
And are left alone.
Some pray for peace
And do not live to see it.
All this eternity
Will level things out someday.
~ Russ Allison Loar
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Deathbed View
No device,
No contriving,
No high-minded shuffling
And reshuffling of language
Into passages only the literati can decipher.
No wile,
No wordplay,
No conceptual crossword puzzles
Demonstrating my keen intelligence
And desire to be admired.
Awakened by mortality,
I have a deathbed view,
And those most ordinary of subjects
Such as love,
People,
The day at hand,
Are the only subjects that matter,
Really matter.
Life itself, that is.
~ Russ Allison Loar
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The Angels Pray
The kingdom of heaven is at hand.
He said this.
He said so many things,
Some lost in translation,
Others so direct,
So immediate
We fail to understand.
We are lost in hypothesis,
Wandering through the desert of the theoretical,
Dying of thirst,
Finding no relief in the idea of water,
No comfort from the concept,
When all along
The cool, clean water is before us,
But we do not drink.
We refuse to replace the idea with the immediate.
We will not drink.
We imagine a place,
A heaven,
A hell,
A limbo,
Where all our speculations are resolved.
We imagine that the real world,
The eternal world,
The awakened life
Is in some other existence,
Some other plane of being.
The angels pray for us,
Pray that we will awaken,
That we will realize
The kingdom of heaven is at hand,
Heaven and hell and everything in-between,
Here,
Now.
~ Russ Allison Loar
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Remembering
How old you want to be
May depend
On how much you want to remember.
Some enjoy the bliss of erasing unhappy memories
As the years
Go
By.
Not me.
Events and circumstances
Pester me,
Suddenly appearing from the fog of the past,
In the middle of the day
While sitting in a café eating a deviled egg sandwich
On rye.
Suddenly,
There it is,
The afternoon I slapped my elderly father across the face,
His glasses skidding across the kitchen floor.
Now,
Old failures and sins line up to be revisited,
Reminding me of how much more I could have achieved,
How much kinder I should have been.
Oh yes, too many unpleasant memories,
Too vivid,
Too detailed,
Telling me I’ve lived long enough,
Long enough to appreciate death and its cleansing power,
Ready now to be reborn,
Ready for the slate wiped clean.
~ Russ Allison Loar
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