Our Stories ~ They Will Not Burn


We lost everything in the fire,
Every thing,
All our mementoes,
Our objects,
Each one containing a memory.

So now,
In a dingy room in a dingy motel,
We put the pieces of our lives back together.
We don’t need objects to prompt our memories.
All our memories are ready to be awakened.

And so,
We sit in the dark,
Telling stories,
So many stories.
We could spend the rest of our lives
Telling our stories.

We've already begun.


~ Russ Allison Loar
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I've Changed


Oh my darling,
I was so foolish,
Such a selfish, weak and unfeeling bastard.
Can you ever forgive me?

I’ll do anything to make it up to you.

I hope you can find it in your heart to understand.
I never meant to hurt you.

Oh my love,
I’ve made so many mistakes,
Won’t you give me another chance,
Now that I’m pretending to be apologetic, contrite and sincere?


~ Russ Allison Loar
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It Is You


O fond remembrance,
Goes here,
With wistful images of childhood,
The lingering sun of spring,
Or perhaps a warm winter fire,
A blackberry bush,
A dog,
Your mother,
Brother,
Other.

Yes, you saw but did not know.
Now you know and see
Through melancholy tint,
In veiled memory.
All your days have come to this,
This enshrined vision of a time,
A day,
Or perhaps a moment,
Goes here,
Your illuminated moment.

O long unrealized realization,
Goes here.
The simple joy,
The profound regret,
Or perhaps both,
And yet,
Something remains,
Something mysterious,
Unspoken yet large,
The lump in the throat,
The wistful tear,
Goes here.

It is you
Who makes this poem,
All the poems you hold near,
It is you.


~ Russ Allison Loar
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The Idea

 

He would win the Nobel Prize
For his contributions to the origin of the universe,
But first,
His wife needs him to fix a leaky faucet.
He has to go to the hardware store.

So frustrating,
So many interruptions,
Right when his calculations begin to coalesce,
When they begin to speak.

But first,
His wife needs him to remove his laundry
From the washer
To make room for her clothing.

Then the cat barfs on the rug in his den,
Which makes him jurisdictionally responsible
For the cleanup.  

Now his coffee is cold,
And his stomach is rumbling because he forgot to eat,
Being seized by an idea,
The idea,
Perhaps the missing piece of the cosmological puzzle.

But first,
His chatty neighbor is ringing the doorbell.
She’s brought a bag of homegrown tomatoes
And quickly engages his wife in inane conversation,
Focused on her observations
Of the meaningless exploits of the neighbors.
She rambles on in exhausting detail.

He retreats to his den,
Having second thoughts about working from home.
Since he does not require a laboratory for his work,
It seemed like a good idea,
At first.

Now, back to his theorem,
The missing piece,
It seemed like such an obvious idea,
Once it broke through the maze of spurious speculations.
O yes, the missing piece,
The solution. 
 
“Oh God,” he cries out,
Suddenly realizing he forgot to write it down.

His deep despair suddenly startled
By the frantic ringing of the landline.

His wife will not answer the phone.
She never answers the phone,
Even though it’s usually someone for her.

She’s busy playing the piano,
Reproducing classical pieces in fits and starts,
Repeating difficult passages over and over.

He answers the phone.

The sunlight begins to dim.
His intellectual energy begins to wane.
Perhaps it would be best to close his notebooks,
Wait until tomorrow and get an early start.
With a good night’s sleep
Perhaps the idea will once again reveal itself.
And besides,
It’s nearly time to walk the dog.


~ Russ Allison Loar
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